I was thinking this morning about the fact that last year, we were waiting for our appointment with Dr. Heiner to figure out what we needed to do to start our family - now we are finishing a nursery, looking forward to baby showers, about to start classes on parenting and labor and delivery, etc. Quite a change after several disappointments and years of hoping for our family to start!
I think I started reflecting on this because a very dear friend of ours is going through a miscarriage - heartbreaking. I think it is normal that once you start getting excited and have your due date in mind, you start thinking through the next months, wondering what you will look like, wondering if it will be a boy or a girl, thinking of the season it will be, etc.and getting VERY excited - then if something happens it's just a horrible loss. My prayers are with her and I hope she will not be afraid and will get to start her family soon.
I read a paragraph that I keep reflecting on - it is especially salient when you think about the challenges some of us face in our baby hopes:
"Having babies may be as natural as the sun rising in the east, but it's still a miracle every time it happens. If you feel anxious at times, it's just your humility acknowledging that having a dream come true is a blessing, not a right. And when yours does come true, you will appreciate it that much more." Vicki Iovine ~ The Girlfriends' Guide to Pregnancy
OK - week 26 - I'm feeling better as long as I take Claritin D and benadryl - hate to do that daily, but it sure helps! Blood sugars have been good except for today - I may have to change my pump site - that's my only guess as to what the heck is going on. Gracie is kicking a LOT now - sometimes it feels like a Mexican jumping bean - you can sometimes see my clothes move the kicks are so strong! Blake has been working really hard to assemble furniture we bought at Ikea for the nursery - he is finishing the dresser now. I'll post pictures from the room transformation soon. :) Oh - my stretch marks are getting worse and my stomach is getting itchy!!! Not too bad, though.